Psychedelics can be a game changer, for sure!

I’ve dabbled - and I am happy to say one lasting benefit is the little voice that said “God I wish I could just shoot myself right now”, several times a day, for years, is gone.

Integration is key, though - but it sounds like you’ve got that on lock. Life’s the real trip, but tripping can help remind you of that (at least, sometimes, for a lot of but not all people).