I finally unlocked the confidence to be the version of me that I want to be. Got the haircut I’ve always wanted, have it dyed the colour I want, I’m getting a new piercing soon, and I’m planning out the tattoo I’m going to get once I have some spare money. It’s been a journey to get here, but I’m so fucking happy with who I am and I no longer feel the need to apologize for being comfortable as my self.

World of Warcraft. Ugh.

Emetophobia. Fear of vomiting. I’m super nauseated just thinking about it to type it out. It led to a semi eating disorder when I was young because I didn’t trust any food to be properly kept or cooked. Took a food safety class for work and learned proper food handling and preparation, so I eat a lot better now. But I definitely come off as rude if I don’t trust the person that’s cooking food for me, like my partner’s family, or friends that don’t understand.

I can’t help friends or loved ones when they’re sick if that’s one of their symptoms, which sucks. If someone has a nasty cough that gags them I go into a panic. If I hear someone get sick I instantly start crying, sweating, shaking, and my mind gets fuzzy with panic.

I really hate it. I always thought I had arachnophobia, but I just really really don’t like spiders. I don’t get the mind numbing panic that, to me, would classify it as a phobia.

And yeah, because of the phobia, I haven’t gotten sick like that since I was 8, and I was born in the 80s. Plenty of fearful times, but cold water and pepto helped me through.

I gotta go dissociate on some meme posts for a bit now.

Apex Legends really honed my skills with shooters on keyboard and mouse. I always thought I was terrible at shooters. Turns out it was just the controller I was bad with. I always played with friends and it greatly helped our tactical communication and snap decision making skills too. We found out who the natural shot callers were and who can’t be trusted to make the calls in a tense situation, lol

YOU FACE JARAXXUS, EREDAR LORD OF THE BURNING LEGION!