Pathologic 2
At the end of the game the
spoiler
inquisition looks at you and tells you that everything has been for naught, not because you couldn’t save everyone, but because you were wasting time, in your real life, trying to save people in a video game as your real life slips away from you.
Left me shook. Amazing game.
Had a really bad weed addiction (yes I know it’s psychological but imo it was harder than quitting cigarettes)
Whenever I tried to quit I wouldn’t be able to sleep for up to 3 days at a time. If I got past that I could be clean for a month or two before caving and falling back into weed usage.
Turns out I had really bad OCD and PTSD and zero serotonin (thus, no sleep). I got put on Lexapro and the obsessions were 90% better after that, and the weed usage has gone from daily to once every few months, with friends. The hard part has been adjusting, and developing, a new lifestyle and hobbies to replace the drug use. I also have Been grieving the decade I lost to addiction and trauma.
My tips: addiction is a response to something else going on. It’s not laziness, it’s not lack of willpower, it’s not because you are a monster. It might be due to covering up pain, or because you’re self medicating and don’t realize it. Be kind to yourself, because the world is unnecessarily shitty to addicts.