LegionEris [she/her]

Leading a one woman branch of the Erisian Liberation Front! In love with almost everything all the time.

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Cake day: August 23rd, 2023

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  • This is fairly common in both depression and ADHD, so maybe check on them? Like, make sure they are personally okay. Someone who needs to be consistently stimulated is probably uncomfortable at rest. Being bored all the time is something I struggle with personally. I have ADHD and depression and trauma. Addressing and working on those things helps immensely with the chronic boredom. When I’m more depressed or anxious, I’m more easily bored and crave more stimulation. So, yeah, play Ted Lasso and check in on them.


  • DO NOT ADD ANOTHER PERSON BECAUSE OF YOUR FAILING RELATIONSHIP

    It’s insane to me that this apparently must be said by multiple people with massive emphasis. We only considered this because our relationship was and still is so strong. We just met really young and have a lot of love to give. I don’t want to lose my wife or have had only one great romance in my life. She didn’t want marrying a woman to mean she would never experience men again. So we share the incredible bounty of love in which we live.













  • Oh god so many I could ruin this post. Music is my most important processing art, and many of the musicians I listen to are very important to me. So I’ll limit myself:

    "We took a weekend, drove to Provo.

    The snow was white and fluffy.

    A weekend in Utah won’t fix what’s wrong with us

    The grey sky was vast and real cryptic above me."

    The Mountain Goats ~ The Mess Inside.

    Because the work to get better and overcome truama isn’t easy or short. I’ve done a lot of wonderful things with my wife, and we’ve both come incredibly far from our truamas. But most of the nice things we’ve done had very little impact on that recovery. To paraphrase a Ray Ramano bit from SNL, you’re still gonna be you in Italy.

    “I don’t fall in love, I plummet.” ~Ashley Virginia ~I Don’t Fall in Love

    “You can’t stay everywhere you leave a piece of your heart.” ~Little Mazarn ~Vermont

    These two go together. I fall in love–with people, places, things, experiences–with abandon. I can be slow to let things in, especially people, because once I do it is quickly a no holds barred environment. It’s what the Uhaul key on my necklace means. Because of that, I can’t stay everywhere or keep everyone I love. I have to know when and what to let go, when and where to hold on.

    Finally I guess I’m gonna wholly belie all notions of brevity with a whole god damn Diane Cluck song:

    "Somethin’ loosened around my heart

    From where it was bound, it fluttered around

    This funny motion first mistaken as attack

    I realize and step back

    With real eyes, I step back

    And let it happen

    Knitted so snug inside my chest

    Iron lungs, ribs as rungs

    Those who care to try and climb me

    Sometimes say it’s hard to find me

    Still, in reflex, I would shout

    When I began spilling out

    Weeping clearly as a blister

    "Hey, I’m here, " you almost missed her

    And I have so much for you (Na-na-na-na-na-na)

    Do you know how I get shy to show you?

    I fill up, tender, with a glow (Na-na-na-na-na-na)

    Fluff and puff as I try to show you

    Display my falling feathers

    As they leave me in this weather

    The days, they go so quickly

    Can’t even stop them

    Don’t even want to"

    Diane Cluck ~Heartloose

    I usually have to listen to this song twice. It’s so short, but so dense. Every bit of it shakes me. I don’t have time to enumerate the ways this song applies, appeals, affects, and relates to me. Diane Cluck is so important to me.




  • When people and places that should be dirty are clean and kempt. Pirates on the seas should be dirty. Soldiers in the field should be dirty. Cowboys on a cattle drive should be dirty. Swamp cultists should be dirty. I appreciate realistically dirty characters. It distracts me every time when characters are clean and showered with their hair done on day three of being lost in the woods or some shit. It’s one of the many things Our Flag Means Death nails. Even Stede gets grimy, because piracy is grimy work.